Seasons of a Birder's Life

<< Back to Page 1   Page 2 of 2

On one level I feel like an amnesiac who spends five years selling irrigation equipment in Bakersfield, unaware that a grieving wife and two children and a career as a gourmet chef are waiting back in New Orleans, until one day the office manager sees a newspaper story and says, "Hey, Duane, you look just like this missing person." And—bingo, oh, yeah, that's who I am.

My day came when I was 20, in college, but back at my parents' house on a gray winter morning. Nobody else was home, and I was sitting on a stool by the patio doors, talking on the phone. I looked outside, and there on the concrete, eating the seeds my mother had scattered, was a little brown bird with black-and-white stripes on its head.

A Reawakening

As painful as it is to write, I must admit that at this stage of my life I considered myself an intellectual. By this I mean a rational person, ruled by logic, knowledge, and empirical inquiry. I mistrusted emotion and sentiment. So I can't concoct some story here of how I was enthralled by this creature's loveliness—let's face it, little brown birds aren't going to win any beauty contests.

I realized that at one time in my life I would have known which bird this one was, and I didn't anymore, and I didn't like it. I knew it was a sparrow, of course, but exactly what kind I couldn't remember. I was quantitatively less smart than I used to be in this subject, and that just wouldn't do.

I went to the bookcase and poked around until I found a bird book. It was my mother's copy of Roger Tory Peterson's A Field Guide to the Birds, second edition, copyright 1947, the same one that had been in the car with us on so many Sunday afternoon drives. I flipped through the pages to Plate 58. Okay, sure: White-throated sparrows have white throats and white-crowned sparrows don't. That makes sense. This was a white-throated.

I flipped through more plates and saw birds I knew. There were the bay ducks lined up neatly in black and gray. There were the commoner owls (common? I'd never seen an owl) and the thrushes and the wrens. There was Plate 54, most colorful of all, with the scarlet tanager showing an incised outline where, so many years before, I'd traced around it to practice drawing. I'd never seen a scarlet tanager, either, but there was proof that once I'd dreamed.

I looked out into the backyard. I had nothing in particular to do. I wondered how many other birds I could identify, just there through the window.

A blue jay, of course, English sparrow, cardinal, starling, robin, grackle, yes. And a couple that I must have had to look up: brown thrasher and junco. And what's that? Frantically looking through the field guide—a cedar waxwing!

My goodness, now they had my attention. That made ten. I decided I'd better start a list.

Thrill of Addiciton

A list. Do I even need to finish the story? It's not a pleasant analogy, but looking back now, I can't help imagining a drug addict who's been clean for years, slipping up just once, and in the space of an hour the deed is done.

Mockingbird was next on the list, and then mourning dove and meadowlark. Soon I started driving to the lake north of town, where I found coot and killdeer, and to my uncle's farm to find rufous-sided towhee and field sparrow.

My girlfriend was tolerant of being dragged along on these chilly expeditions, and my mother was amused and a little mystified by this sudden addiction, or re-addiction. Her bird-crazy little boy was back.

At the end of a month I had 31 species on my list—a bird a day.

That seems ridiculous now, when any birder can go out and see dozens of species in a single day. But I had no idea how to look for birds; I must have blundered around in a daze. (More important, I didn't know songs and calls.)

I'm glad I got started the way I did. I found every one of those birds myself and looked them up, and I can still remember the exact moment for many of them. If an experienced birder had shown me a hundred birds in a day, my list would be a blur of names—only names, not memories.

Addicted I may have become, but, unlike drugs, birds have enhanced my life in ways that I couldn't have imagined at 20.

There's a long list of wonderful places I might never have gone but for birds, from Big Bend and Belize to Spain and South Africa. There are friends I'd never have met, diverse personalities whose one commonality is birds, some of whom I've known for nearly 30 years now.

And it was through the doorway of birds that I entered the whole infinitely varied and fantastic world of nature. You can't be interested in birds without learning about habitats, about why this species is here and that species is there, and soon the interconnections draw you in, the way a beautiful garden tempts you to follow this path and that—though this garden is as big as the planet.

Song of a Meadowlark

It's because of birds that I know the difference between a sugar maple and a red maple, a diamondback water snake and a cottonmouth, an American lady and a painted lady.

It's because of birds that I want to know the difference. It's because of birds that I'm so very rich now, in experiences and possibilities. It's because of birds that I know who I am.

One April afternoon last year when my mother was very sick, I was walking in a park. My sister called and told me to come to her house quickly. It took me 45 minutes.

When I walked into the bedroom where my mother lay, her eyes were almost closed and her breathing was heavy and slow. My sister's eyes were shining and red and my brother-in-law looked terribly sad. My mother had stopped breathing completely about ten minutes earlier, they said, and they'd thought she was gone, but she had started again just before I arrived. I kissed her on the forehead and held her hand, and soon she really was gone.

My brother-in-law put his arm around me. "She just came back to say good-bye to you," he said.

I walked outside, and from the field across the road a meadowlark sang. As I stood there on my sister's porch, the first scissor-tailed flycatcher of the spring flew over.

On a cool day in fall, the whistle of a white-throated sparrow reminds me of a kind of rebirth, of a small thing that changed my life.

Right here on my desk is that 1947 Peterson field guide, the one that traveled in the car with us, the one in which I looked up that little brown sparrow. The book's spine is missing, its covers are held together with tape, its corners are bent and worn. On the endpapers—Peterson's black-and-white roadside silhouettes—are my name and the address of the house where I grew up, in my mother's handwriting.

Somewhere along the way, she passed her book on to me—her book, and a whole universe.

Mel White is a freelance writer specializing in travel and nature.

National Geographic Bird Resources
Bald Eagles: Come Back From the Brink
Experience the Sights and Sounds of Eagles Bird-Watching Sites
Boston Area
Chicago Area
Florida Keys Area
Maine's Acadia National Park
Mount Rainier
New Orleans Area
New York City Area
North Carolina's Outer Banks
Philadelphia Area
Portland Area
Rocky Mountain National Park
Salt Lake City Area
San Francisco Area
Santa Fe Area
South Dakota's Black Hills
Washington's Olympic National Park
Wyoming's Grand Teton National Park
Yellowstone National Park
Yosemite National Park

From the National Geographic Store
Guide to North American Birds
Portable Birdsong Identifier
Birder's Journal
Songbirds Puzzle

<< Back to Page 1   Page 2 of 2



NEWS FEEDS     After installing a news reader, click on this icon to download National Geographic News's XML/RSS feed.   After installing a news reader, click on this icon to download National Geographic News's XML/RSS feed.

Get our news delivered directly to your desktop—free.
How to Use XML or RSS

National Geographic Daily News To-Go

Listen to your favorite National Geographic news daily, anytime, anywhere from your mobile phone. No wires or syncing. Download Stitcher free today.
Click here to get 12 months of National Geographic Magazine for $15.